wannung came over today.

if you find anything amis on facebook or your tagboard, it's probably her thank you.

secret operation 001

1. eat at mof
2. go shopping for a certain thing
3. watch movie.
4. go pasir ris park to steal ponies.
5. go swing on the swings.

SECRET OPERATION 002

"Instead of grumbling and pondering over what's missing in my life, perhaps i should just be contented with what i have. "

zomg so true

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ANYWAY! :D
i was right about mjc having dayoff yesterday haha!

yesterday i decided to while my time away while waiting for them to come over to my house so i took 359 in the opposite direction from my usual route
(:O ok i just told everyone reading this that i take bus 359 home)

yes at the bus stopped right in front of the mjc gate and i realised that the school was totally vacant. like totally.

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WLAN I'M LIKE #$%*(*&^%$#@#&*ING PISSED WITH CW NOW

FIRSTLY WHENEVER I SMS THE WHOLE SECTION ONLY HE WOULD NEVER REPLY ME
AT FIRST I THOUGHT I GOT THE WRONG NUMBER BUT WHEN I CHECKED HIS PHONE WAH THERE WAS LIKE A LIST OF MY SMSES AS THOUGH I'D SPAMMED HIM BUT IT'S BECAUSE NO ONE SMSES HIM AS HE NEVER BOTHERS REPLYING

SECONDLY AFTER BAND TODAY I SPECIFICALLY REMEMBER ME ASKING HIM TO SMS ME ABOUT TOMORROW AND HE SAID YA SURE!! I WILL!!! YA INDEED. SURE I WILL UNTIL NOW 11++ I HAVENT EVEN GOT HIS SMS.

THIRDLY I FOUND THE MISSING 9TH PAGE OF MY CARMEN SCORE TODAY AND BEFORE I WENT TOILET WITH A VERY UGENT NEED TO PEE I TOLD HIM TO PLACE THE SCORE IN MY FILE AND WHEN I CAME BACK HE SAID HE ALREADY PUT IT IN THE POCKET AFTER PAGE8 -_- UH? I DONT SEE IT ! WTF :(

HELLO !!??

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hi.

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I love the way you're so trusting towards everyone and so eager to please the people around you (however unsuccessful).
And although I always tell you about the people who dislike you very nonchalantly, I secretly wish I could protect you from the people who seem so fake, superficial and dislike you without you knowing it.
The more I hear of what people say of you, the more I feel that you're really naive and vulnerable and then I'd wish I was able to help you.
I really do not expect anything from you, I just sincerely hope that you would be happy, find friends who are true to you and that she would be there for you like I know I'd be if I were given a chance.
I think I've gotten over everything that has happened, and the situation now doesn't bother me anymore.
I just want you to stay happy and carefree like you always have been.

And stop trying to grow up! Why rush to when we're still so young?

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this photo is highly funny

look at zh and jacky in the background-_-

EH EN CHER LEH EN CHER zomg

(wannung you look like a noob btw)

don't cry my darling i love you.

if you ever get the postcard from me tomorrow,
it means i love you :D

haha i hope i dont get the wrong bag

"you have to love yourself before others can love you. sometimes we shouldn't be too preoccupied with seeking perfection - it's your flaws that make you perfect."

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CIP TODAY :D
for sengkang primary school

and uhm . well .

they were highly enthusiastic and full of witty (sometimes irritating) comments

DANIEL SAID I WAS CUTE! :D
(uh i mean the one from the pri sch -_-)

http://6faithzeroninepwnsyou.blogspot.com/2009/05/hai.html
http://6faithzeroninepwnsyou.blogspot.com/2009/05/hi.html

eh reading their blogs seem so weird

their ages are closer to my sis's than to mine! oh my i'm getting old :(

zomg daniel's damn cute my sister should like be introduced to him
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

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just now chow heather jacky jx and bun came over for dinner

we ate like coolies

i dont think they'd ever want to come over again :x

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i'm glad you got your friends back :)

and she's talking to you again (although i still think she's such a bitch-_-)
and you did considerably well for your mid years
and everything's back to normal

for you.

haha skip the question "what about you?"
things just keep getting worse

help me?

whatever

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i have a confession to make.

i drink milk every night.

not just any milk. anlene milk. :O

i know you're thinking, ZOMG LIWEN DRINKS OLD PEOPLE MILK!

that's what i told my mum, and she said.
OLD PEOPLE HAVE STRONGER BONES THAN YOU, YOU BETTER DRINK THIS.

:(

I am LIWEN ; says:
#'s always online when * is
irritating
HAHA :(

!ty says:
haha!
aiya cant blame him what
anyway you alr know he likes her
so kan kai yi dian!

I am LIWEN ; says:
maybe someone out there is like
liwen's always online when # is. IRRITATING
hahahhahahahaha
look on the bright side of life~ dum dee dum dee dum dee dum

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haha damnit how very amusing.

i love my section, have i already said that?

i don't know what to think

like
:(
my mind's a mess? you know?

like when i open furballs i have no idea what i wanted to do

i keep staring at my powerpoint slides wondering what's next

i have yet to complete the script just so you know but of course im not going to let my groupmembers down

my stomach killing me

why am i so selfcentered? no i should stop this, not everything is about ME ME ME I I I.

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at least i completed my ug uniform set, wanna see it?



ok yes im missing the sj girl's uniform damnit

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my stomach's aching but i still have a thousand of things to complete

torturous

we were drawing stuffs to prepare for our CIP on thursday

zhouhong: *points at drawing* if only all girls in dunman high looked like that.
me: uh. you crazy?
zhouhong: ...
me: omg she looks like *
zhouhong: OMG REALLY LEH

-_________-

hello!?

so he's indirectly saying that all girls in dunman high should look like * la is it

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here's the drawing. go figure.




still can't get it?

-_-

omg you noob grah

scroll down, you would probably get it

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LOL you cannot believe what i'm doing now.

i'm staring at the yearbook saying OMG DAMN PRETTY OMGOMGOMG
eh really leh so pretty how come i've never noticed her before

-_- haha sorry

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gah. zhouhong -_-

in case you're wondering how i knew these stuffs it's because zhouhong sits behind me and despite him being really heartbroken and stuff he's still cheerful enough to be my daily source of random redundant information

but i've gotten into so many shitty situations since the start of the year

so much so that nothing can really affect me anymore

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the following conversation has *** with the above section

me: zomg she has bad taste! i would choose X over Y
irene: LOL ya X is so much nicer than Y
me: ...
irene: ...
me: you don't mean it right
irene: ...
me: hello??
irene: ya actually Y's very cute
me: :O
irene: i feel like pinching his cheeks
me: :O nevermind X has dyllis and me. and -----
irene: :O haha!!

HAHAHA!

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:/

don't ever tell me your life is screwed.

it cannot be worse than mine. wanna fight? sorry you just lost.

chualiwen,
you fail.

start over again, come on pull yourself together.

this is not counted as a failure. these are not counted as failures.

no darling haha it's not that i'm sad everyday, it's just a long story i cannot be bothered to recount.

where's the restart button?

it's the delete button.

once i delete all these memories, put up a thickskinned front, give my best, everything would be fine again.

wtf 2009 cannot get any worse than this

cute not !?

and yes that's my ugly signature with part of my chinese name which i'm secretly very proud of (not secret anymore) because when i was in primary school my classmates used to point out that my name has a 雨 and that was the reason i cried alot
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buttons are my new obsession.

as you can see from my previous post,
I HAVE LOTS OF BUTTONS! :D

and if you would ever like to buy them from me they're 15cents per piece ok.
you can sms me to bring the buttons to school and you can choose from the wide array of buttons i have :D
(actually not very wide array they're all around the same -_-)

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my sister has a friend called nicole who comes over to our house every sunday to play maple and watch tv together

sometimes she would bring her younger brother along to play maple too and he's really n00b because sometimes when he hops around in his little maple world people would follow behind his character just to call him n00b

:( i never had a friend in p3 who came over to my house to play neopets and watch tv with me

eh actually i think i had
but she didn't play neopets with me we just played noob games at the playground with her brother -_-

(it's jill! :O from 4G :O she was my pri school classmate for 6 years -_- hi jill if you read this haha)

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:) no really it's never too late

(de)motivate someone you love today!
click here

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being with you has taught me many things

thanks for all the new insights and perspective you've brought into my life

i've matured so much

thank you

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It was May 23rd, 2009. The time was 17:39 and it was sweltering hot. Mary and Tom were sitting on the playground swings, savouring every spoonful of ice-cream. They watched as a bunch kids played catching on the field, as butterflies hopped from flower to flower collecting nectar, as the sun's heat lashed out on the poor grass.

Tom turned to look at Mary. "Is there anything you want to tell me?" he asked.

Mary smiled, “I want you to inspire me.”

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"When you smile, and the charismatic aura you radiate beguiles me, my heart palpitates with unrestrained joy and jubilation because I know I would be inspired. Inspired to spread the love, to show everyone how infectious a smile can be, to let you know that you mean the world to me."

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At a young age, we were taught to separate balls from dolls, to stack our toys away nicely in boxes, to classify everything and anything. As we mature, our capacity for knowledge expands, and when the sophistication of life gets to us we try to simplify it and create more boxes to stack our problems away. Yet we become so obsessed with categorising the things around us, that we leave out any room for compassion and understanding and forget that there isn’t always a clear line between right and wrong. Life is meant to be ingested and savoured as a whole and the beauty of it is slowly being sieved away during the labyrinthine process we go through of trying to grasp its concept.

The complexity of human emotions makes it such that boxes are not able to contain and categorise them. So as much as we would like to, emotions cannot just be dumped into a few boxes just for our convenience. We all have to come to understand that not everything requires logic and reasoning.

Maybe some day I would gain liberation. Liberation from this maze that I've yet to find a solution for.

Maybe some day I would get the answers I seek. Beyond the boundaries of fact and fiction, with the ability to transcend the horizons of reality.

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But for now

...

well for now

it's time for my chem tuition! :D ciao

the thought of there being a hole in my vein is freaking me out and making the back of my hand very sensitive to touch

(i know the picture is very blur because i took it with my extremely cold and shaky left hand)

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so much for "screw all those who wish people happy birthday on facebook"

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINGQING!

but just to pretend that i did not know about her birthday through facebook, i'm going to sms her instead of wishing her happy birthday on FB haha :D how smart of me.

is it 12 yet is it 12 yet is it 12 yet

i just hope she doesn't read this haha

(eh shit what if its not her birthday)

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EH taychenteck can you dont anyhow ask people to get a life you're the one that needs a freaking life you screwed shit urgh i feel like strangling your fat neck HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA wlau and just in case you think im some person rlly nothing better to do i wasnt the one who called you bitch on your tagboard haha hais so sad leh you're so hated aww too bad haha

urgh damn irritating right he's like %$#@ing with my mind

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"He who laughs last has not heard the bad news"

or maybe he's just a obdurate, apathetic bastard who just doesn't give a %$#*ing damn about anything

:)

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i hate expensive pens -_- never buy me an expensive pen thanks.

i'd rather you spend $5 to buy me 10 lousy pens than buy 1 extremely high class pen because i hate high class expensive pens

i swear all people who sell me expensive pens always replace the ink with lousy quality ink -_- either that or i'm meant to use shitty lousy cheap pens for the rest of my life.

oh well :D all the best anyway

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just so you know.

where fact becomes fantasy
where reality ends and obsession begins

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lets watch the final destination k :D

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so you say it's not okay to be gay
well I think you're just evil

:) go listen to fuck you by lily allen

spot anyone familiar?

so cute omg ><

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as you may realise, i'm not in school now! :D

thanks everyone who smsed me, i'm fine! :)
i just happen to be on MC today-_-

i went to the hospital yesterday morning (haha)

it was damn %$#*ing scary :(

truth to be told, the drip isn't as scary as it looks.
it's just the thought of it that frightens me. :/

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i love you! :D

no actually you're right, i am.
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haha i love dane cook! :D

come dazzle my world .

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i hate flirts. o.O especially you, omg you disgust me.

i'm sorry jr and nicole :x today i was trying to convince cw to go for part dinner and yet when he finally agreed i didn't HAHA sorry

walauuuu i hate guys who alot of girls like la. -_- i'd sworn to myself i would never like such a guy.

ok i'm done with you byee.

:(

walau you very shuai meh very nice meh how come so many ppl like you -_- crazy. byee.

HAHA oh no i'm crazy

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ME: hello? can you talk to me?
MYSTERIOUS PERSON: sorry i cannot talk on the phone at night
ME: huh why why why
MYSTERIOUS PERSON: i'm sorry i'll tell you tmr i've got to hang up
ME: omg you ok?
MYSTERIOUS PERSON: *noises in the background* yes tell you tmr i've got to go byebye
ME: huh okok byee

I BET THE REASON MYSTERIOUS PERSON'S GOING TO TELL ME TOMORROW IS THAT THERE'S BIO CT TMR HAVEN'T STUDIED YET OMG JIAN4 -_-

[edit]
omg mysterious person just said "my phone is crazy i heard voices just now".
as in voices voices, not my voice?
SCARY NOT YOU TELL ME OMG I'M SO FREAKED OUT I THINK I MIGHT JUST LIKE FAINT
[/edit]

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nerd blogs are actually really interesting

try reading a blog of someone who doesn't slack their time away like i do and i'm sure you'd probably get motivated to get your ass out of the chair and to do something productive.

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i've reached a stage where it has been infused into me and my everyday routine. i cannot stop now, i'm sorry.

(i know no one would actually read this)

DON'T BE SO HEARTBROKEN HAHAHAHA
someday she'd realise you're so much more worth it than he is
(at least i think so?)

i think i can understand why you dislike him :O hahahahahahahahah

AND hello please irene melisa karina! im not jealous can you dont anyhow say -_-

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but i'm damn heartbroken :(

my juniors are meeting without me tomorrow
wth :(

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when you drink green tea at a time like this
...
it's just a . experience

. is a situation that is too magical, mysterious and beautiful to be replaced with a mere word

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argh my stomach hurts again i shall attempt to sleep off the pain as usual

i didnt want to post again. but!!

STUPID TJ! -_-

11 May 2009 @ 11:17 pm

everytime my msn flashes.
i always pray it is you.
to disappointment.

why does so many random people talk to me today?
hi lurkers.

wtf??!! i was talking to him on 11 may. i must have been the one constantly leaving him disappointed because i'm not that person he's waiting for :o HAHA thanks tj you just made my day. -______-

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nah im just kidding

LOVING YOU MAKES ME HAPPY EVERYDAY
:O haha sorry that was tj inspired.

no this isn't a tj dedicated post

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im going to make the best of my time i swear.

AND HAVE THE TIME OF MY LIFE :)

i have duodenum ulcer

not gastric.

i just thought of how much i'm going to miss my section.

:( i love you all!
thanks for being there for me.
(and entertaining my constant hua1 chi1 ness)
i hadn't been a good senior but i'm sure you all would make great seniors because you all had been great juniors :D

but . now's not the time to think of this . practice hard for Rhythm! :x

i'm so afraid.

so very afraid.

Dear bitch :)

Has it ever occurred to you that any negative remarks or criticisms you pass about me will eventually be known by me? o.O

Oh sure, according to you, I indulge in mindless natter about others' business which I have no rights to be poking my nose into. Then why do you still make biased statements against me? Surely you'd have the common sense to know that these would ultimately come to my knowledge since I'm such a busybody, right?

No really, it's not just about me. It's about all the things you say about how you detestable that someone is (oh i mean everyone), and can still smile and pretend that it wasn't you who claimed feeling disgust towards them a minute ago.

People aren't supposed to be that hypocritical. You have crossed the line between being diplomatic and just plain two-faced fuckshit. Why do others actually fall for your rotten acting skills? Do they know what you're saying behind their backs? Are they like aware? ARE THEY? Gosh.

I must also mention that you have extremely bad judgment towards people. The reason why I despise your attitude and character is mainly because of the people you'd held trust in (that's if you'd ever trusted anyone), whom you thought would probably never tell a soul about the things you say and do. I apologise for I wouldn't normally habour so much hatred towards someone, and yet what I cannot stomach is your blatant lies and hypocritical acts of kindness towards people you supposedly dislike. omg kind my foot.

Why do you have to create such an overly competitve study environment? We are not made to compete against each other using unscrupulous means. Does turning on your closest friend give you the kind of momentary satisfaction you need to feed your fucking low self-esteem?

Why am I not surprised that you two aren't as close as others thought you were.


URGHHHHH KISS MY ASS PLEASE KISS MY ASS.

OH YES ONE MORE THING.
WOULD YOU STOP FLIRTING WITH * JUST TO SPITE ME BEFORE I FORCIBILY INSERT A LARGE OBJECT UP YOUR ANUS. THANK YOU BITCH.

someone told me that she doesn't go around slapping people, but i sure hope she slaps you :)

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whatever.

you're becoming uglier because you have an equally ugly heart. or maybe even worse.

what a pity. you were really goodlooking. 3 years ago.

sorry please dont hate me it's not my fault i wasnt the one who typed fuck you sorry

someday i'm going to be an renowned author.

i'd sit by my laptop the whole day writing stories. By write, i mean hand written because i only get inspiration from writing it out. I write out all my LA essays or journals before typing them in the computer -__-

i'd write about all my amazing theories and tell the stories behind them how i derived them
i'd write about the characters and their adventures i used to fantasise of as a child
i'd write about my hopes for the future and how each turned out to be (you never know right?)

but for now i'd just have to study hard get good results :( hais so no life

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off to heather's house :D

but first, i have to do something about my grass hair


yes it's tiny for a reason

NOW YOU SEE WHY I GEL MY HAIR EVERY MORNING RIGHT I CANNOT POSSIBLY GO TO SCHOOL WITH GRASS HAIR HUH IT LOOKS HORRENDOUSLY SCARY OMG I CANNOT BELIEVE MY HAIR CAN ACTUALLY DO THAT

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"I find the thought of maths assignments very appealing."
-maths geek

omg omg omg omg im serious man a maths geek just smsed me that but i called her maths geek to protect her identity.

nvm guys you did a great job! :D
better than trashing a class like 4M i mean come on where's the kick? :o no i didn't just type that

goodluck for the next match girls :)

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your smile makes my day! xD
like really really really


hi! i'm mr beansmileonafinger

it doesnt matter that you're not smiling because of me
it makes me happy just seeing you so happy :)

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and hello everyone who said i look nicer with my new hair
e.g. shrimp -_-

I DO NOT HAVE NEW HAIR I JUST DID NOT GEL IT TODAY OMG

that was so demoralising :(
i did not know my hair gelling skills were so terrible
.
well now i know

(i also know you're laughing at me)

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gastric + cramps = torturous anguish

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i'm exhausted . goodnight

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oh before i end i would like to mention that whenever i see anyone crying i feel like going over to hug that person and i believe that crying is not a sign of weakness but courage to express one's emotions

i'd just installed my webcam

using a software i downloaded from the internet because the stupid CD it came with refused to work -_- i know you're thinking i'm some computer geek, no i'm nothing compared to tj :O

AND I LOVE CAMWHORING

FOLLOWING PHOTOS TAKEN USING THE PHOTO BURST TOOL OK I DID NOT POSE FOR EVERY ONE OF THEM








(no i wasnt the one who added the green and red thing-_-)

i like ham alot more when he was much smaller.
in size. (haha)

now he looks. uhm. normal.

oh man. am i a pedophile?

i can already imagine myself 30 years down the road preying on small little boys OHNO!

HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAH

yumyum

i'm here to promote loyang point's bakery because i just ate a pastry from that shop that is called CHOCOLATE HUT or something and it's damn delicious

p.s. the shop isn't called loyang point's bakery. it's a bread shop at loyang point haha :) go figure

haha!

AFTER 4 DAYS OF SLEEPLESS EMO NIGHTS I FINALLY GOT OVER IT! :D
there's nothing i can do about your abhorrence towards me apart from acknowledging it

as what tj said
i either pester you like a retard (hm) or accept the fact and move on.
beats emoing like a failure

FAILURE! and i'm no phailure :)

:D CHEERS EVERYONE

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get well soon chow and dyllis!
i'm not saying this only because of the swine flu epidemic -_-

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i highly suspect the reason i suffer from gastric is our school timetable + holy shit distance from classrooms to canteen + amount of time for recess (!!)

typing this is like redundant

because everyone knows that

time after teacher is willing to release us = 5 minutes
time taken to walk from classroom to canteen = 5 minutes
time taken to queue for food = 7 minutes
time taken to queue for drinks = 5 minutes
time taken to look for seats = 5 minutes
time taken to eat food = 5 minutes (! shorter than queuing time-_-)
time taken to pee = 5 minutes

total time = 42 minutes (!!)

OUR RECESS IS ONLY 30 MINUTES!

wtf please hello???
sometimes after queuing for like a damn ^&%$ing long time i just give up and return to class with an empty stomach :(((((((( & the next chance i get to eat would be like 4 hours later

anyone who thinks that this is highly unfair can contact me at i.killed.a.cow@hotmail.com with your name and class :)

HAHAHAHA and maybe a miracle might happen
(miracle being i might write a petition or do something about it haha)

wlau i type this also no one read :( hais no point

siao i also not sc what can i do haha ok sorry forget it la hor

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did i make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life?

goodbye my almost lover,
goodbye my hopeless dream.

i'm trying not to think about you,
can't you just let me be?

so long my luckless romance,
my back has turned on you.

should've known you'd bring me heartache,
almost lovers always do.

no hor im not emo i just like haunting songs

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everyday is a happy day xD

and today is a specially happy day because i choose it to be :)

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and hello your pee is either yellow or colourless and not white!!! -__-

if your pee is white you have urinal tract infection, there's something wrong with you, need to seek medical attention hor

HAHA PEOPLE WHO PEE IN MY HOUSE'S TOILET BOWL ALWAYS THINK THEIR PEE IS BLUE.
WLAU IT'S THE TOILET BOWL CLEANER LAAAA WTF -_- LAME

omg i just read about someone who shoved a carrot up her vagina because she ran out of tampons omg omg omg

A storm is coming, Frank says,
A storm that will swallow the children.
And I'll deliver them from the kingdom of pain,
I'll deliver the children to their doorsteps,
I'll send the monsters back to the underground,
I'll send them back to a place where no one else can see them,
Except for me.

Coz I'm Donnie Darko.

9DAYS :(

i have gastric

damn %^$&(*&%$@#!@#$%!@#$%^&*()_)(*&^%$#@)ing pain

sometimes i feel that you're doing this to me on purpose so it won't seem like your fault but mine instead

i'm sorry it's not your fault it's mine

because i still don't like her

jonathan just smsed me if evon is gone liao

GONE MY ASS LA GONE -__-

she just has o lvls i think, and she's migrating next year after her Os! :(

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yesterday night i spent 1 hour reading some website about jungian psychology
(which i've mentioned before. DIG MY ARCHIVES :D)

and i had the weirdest dream.

unlike most of my dreams, this dream was set in a place i've never been to or seen before
& yet the creepy part of it was that i felt a sense of deja vu

this is a SIGN

yala sign sign but i also don't know what sign i should just like go meditate and figure out what it means

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sdaersihttahwtuoerugifotgniyrtemitruoydetsawtsujuoydnasihtdaerotelbaebotbmudooterasrehtotahtgniknihtsihtekilepytelpoepnehwtietahi

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sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me

:D i love emoing at the beach







AH i behave like a guy :D hahaha
(look at the photo below -_-)



...
not that it matters now anyway

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early mornings are good for doing maths

boosts self-esteem
clears mind of emo thoughts
heightens feelings of ecstasy

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i bought GATSBY MOVING RUBBER :O


i never ever thought it would come to a day when i would buy it

green apple?
i never knew green apples smell like car airfreshener

i would be a walking car airfreshener

.

this morning i was hunting for hair gel at home

and i swear my mum passed me hand lotion and claimed it was hair gel
I SWEAR!

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HAHA i just thought of something funny (& kind of nostalgic)

(junkai mumbles something to tj)
mrtan: JUNKAI WHAT ARE SAYING?
zhikang: he just told tj that they have to gong1 ping2 jing4 zheng1 for *

o.O LOLOLOLOL
that was hilarious

maybe not funny when you read it here but at that point of time, it was really funny

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chua liwen stop crying you're not practicing what you preach