havent blogged in such a long time but it's not like anyone reads my posts anyway. not that it's a bad thing.

I know I shouldn't be letting my insecurity get to me, but after all that's happened in the past 17 years of my life I honestly don't know how that's possible. You asked what is it I want from you. I guess I was just hoping you'd give me the reassurance I need.

But then again, aren't all relationships based on trust? Why am I so selfish :( I feel so blessed that you're so understanding all the time but maybe we do need a breather.