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I've realised. That we're all the same inside, no matter how we may look on the outside.

:)

Sorry I ever disliked you so much -_- fucking stupid of me.

QUIZ! :D
WRITE EXACTLY WHAT COMES FIRST TO YOUR MIND AND DO NOT CHANGE IT.

Your ex and You: HAHAHA kissed in my dreams.
I am listening to: What A Girl Wants by 4minute
Maybe I should: get changed and go on my bus ride soon.
I love: this song I'm listening to. Really supa addictive.
My best friend: is non-existant. I hate ranking my friends. :/
I don’t understand: how come I couldn't get to sleep today.
I have lost my respect for: that asshole.
I last ate: lamb chop! No, it was the ice cream that came with the meal.
The meaning of my display name is: my name spelt backwards. (plus so ace, which describes me.) SO ace.
God: ...
Someday: I will be rich and happy. :D
I will always be: the carefree Chualiwen I am.
Love seems to be: an unexplainable emotion. -Unregistered-
I never ever want to lose: my friends.
My myspace is: o-u-t. out. (haha my apologies to those still using myspace)
I get annoyed when: people at home start screaming.
Parties: scare me. :O
Simple Kisses: ... is this like a name of something?
Today I: went shopping at Popular. HAHA :D
I wish: things could stay this way forever. :] and I would always be this happy.

5:27 AM

Dear you-know-who-you-are,

I could see it in your eyes. I know you're angry with me, really really sorry. I want to know what's going on in your life too, please let me in.

I promise and swear with all my heart that I will move on. Sorry for letting you down, I don't want to see you so sad again.

You're amazing. Even before everything started, you were already telling me not to talk about him and made me treat you to drinks if I did. It's like you'd already knew what was going to happen, like you knew that things was going to turn out the way it did. Should've listened to you huh? Then all these wouldn't have happened.

This morning, I didn't really need to pee, I just felt that I had to go on to that bus, like a premonition or something. I guess I shouldn't have. On the way to school I thought alot. I thought about the people who encouraged me (like you) and that I should make this decision for them, for you, for myself. I took out the card and tore it. Because that's what you've always wanted to do, because you knew that it would make me happier. I didn't want to resist your help anymore, cannot continue letting down those people who care for me. And yeah, I threw the card away after I alighted.

Like I told you, life's always trying to fuck with us. That's why I need to be strong.

I'm going to be happier, I'm going to get better. I promise. Thanks for all that you tried to do to help me. I won't let you down. You mean alot to me. All my friends do.

Cheers! :D To a great life ahead.

p.s. I'm going to print this out and give it to you the next time we meet. If you've already read this, please let me know. HAHAHA! What?! I'm trying to save trees ok.

6:08 AM

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Mid-recovery, please be patient.

I'm seriously seriously seriously grateful for my wonderful wonderful friends. :( Don't know what I would do without them. Probably dead by now.

SPECIAL THANKS TO WANNUNG WHO STAYED OUT THAT DAY WATCHING ME CRY AND TO TJ WHO'S BEEN REALLY REALLY NICE AND SUPPORTIVE AND PATIENT WITH ME (however cynical)

LYLAS BOTH OF YOU :D

haha i know i sound really bimbo.

4:06 AM

OOOH I'm feeling super super super uncomfortable right now.
super super duper duper uber uber uncomfortable

*shivers*

I keep getting random goosebumps moments. (if you know what i mean)

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:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

1:59 AM

I'm so tired of being strong.

Maybe you're right. My life is meant to be screwed, and I can't be bothered to do anything about it anymore. Fuck it.

The next time I overdose on my pills, I'm going to make sure it's enough to kill me.

9:23 PM

:( FUCK MY FUCKING LOUSY LIFE
(life sucks)

but thank you everyone (once again) for helping me and ensuring I'm still alive (although that's not exactly what I had in mind)

-_-

I can totally understand how hg got so ... after he got discharged. My right hand is almost twice the size of my left hand. And that's only after 2 days of being on the drip. I swear I must've gained weight.

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gah

maybe

i would be better off. dead.

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omg this sucks -_- i wanted to go out and now it's pouring.

omg. -_- plus thunder.

-_- life sucks. or what.

1:36 PM

oh definitely :)

10:43 PM