omg this is like a dream

I FEEL LIKE IM DREAMING IM FLOATING ON A CLOUDDDDDDDD

CLOUD NINE OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

i hope i dont screw up

im sorry im so anal and irritating

i really am

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while i was packing my stuff i found something really interesting

THERE'S SOMETHING REALLY FUNNY ABOUT THIS
(apart from the fact that cassandra gave it to me 2 years ago)



eh shixun leh shixun !!

...

you hope

HELLOOOO I THINK MY MUMMY IS VERY AMAZING

SHE CAN COOK LIKE SO MANY AMAZING YUMMY DISHES AND I CANT EVEN SCRAPE THE EGG OUT OF THE PAN

ok im just joking, my eggs are all very nice with the yolk glimmering in the middle.

YA BUT STILL MY MUMMY IS VERY AMAZING SHE COOKED LIKE AN ENTIRE BUFFET TODAY AND HER NOODLES ARE BETTER THAN THOSE YOU EAT IN THE RESTAURANT

(omg why i never take photo :( )

there was this fried yam thing with charsiew in the middle and then there was sea cucumber and fish (damn nice!!!) and sharkfins chicken (??) scallop and veggies and alot of other stuff la

anyway they were all very yummmyyyyy and niceeeeeeee IF I ASK MY MUMMY TO TEACH MY HAHA MY HUSBAND WILL BE SO LUCKY NEXT TIME I WILL COOK YUMMY FOOD FOR HIM EVERY SINGLE DAY

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WHY THE HECK AM I UP SO LATE?

let me show you why ..

SLIDE 1

A: HELLO EVERYONE! We’re here with something very important to say!

B: That’s right! Have you ever banged into lamp posts, pillars or walls while wearing sunglasses? Do find the need to squint under the hot sun very irritating? Wish there was a way to make life for your eyes easier?

C: DO NOT FRET BECAUSE WE’RE GOING TO INTRODUCE YOU TO PHOTOCHROMIC LENSES!

YES YOU'RE RIGHT TADUM IT'S THE CHEM THING :D

i hate guys who are overly sensitive :/

they freak out and go ballistic the moment they hear words like "loser" or "lifeless" or "rubbish" or whatever

.

what do you call a guy who spent 2 hours playing super mario but still unable to pass the level?
LOSER RIGHT??!!

me : omg you're still playing, so loser leh stop playing already la!
him : what loser?

SITUATION 1. (this is how to avoid being hated)

me : oh sorry im referring to myself, please continue your futile efforts of jumping over that cliff.
him : yes you are a loser oh shit i just dropped again.

SITUATION 2. (this is what normally happens)

me : you're the loser la play so long still cannot pass!
him : ...

he doesn't say anything but when i said that line it's as though i planted a time bomb which would explode approximately a week later

he would be thinking about it all day and night
LIWEN CALLED ME A LOSER!! I AM NO LOSER
and then he would post photos on his blog about how he managed to get like all the coins and jumped across 999 cliffs within a really short time

A WEEK LATER HE WOULD COME TO ME AND SAY
"I'M AT LEVEL 38572 NOW I AM NO LOSER. YOU ARE THE LOSER, LOSER"

then he would hate me for the rest of his life for injuring his pathetic proud ego

-___-

you get the idea.

they start to emo emo emo about small little insignificant stuff
(eg. somebody just said he/she regrets knowing him
or
that he/she only talks to him because he's lifeless
or
how loserish he is for not being able to play super mario)

small little insignificant stuff TO US,
to them it's like OMG MY LIFE'S AT STAKE SAVE ME

thats why i hate act cool guys who emo -___-

YOU KNOW WHAT NERDS HAVE MORE RIGHTS TO EMO THAN YOU BECAUSE EVERYONE OSTRASIZES NERDS AND CALL THEM LIFELESS LOSERS AND IF THEY HAVE MOOD SWINGS IT'S PROBABLY ALL YOUR FAULT SO STOP GETTING ANGRY AT THEM AND CRITISIZE THEM FOR BEING AP BECAUSE THEN YOU'RE THE REAL AP NERD N00B

:D anyway you get the idea.

why do you have to do this to me ? :(

HAHAHA

lets hope we achieve our goals asap! :D goodluck to you goodluck to me too

but i don't need your help (i know you wont anw -_-)

19OCTOBER LYLAB HAHA literally.

you think i couldn't find someone who looks 15 despite being 19?

well i did.

HAHA! damn

1. What is your full name?
CHUA LIWEN (liwen's one word. ONE WORD!)

2. Do you like your name?
of course :D

3. How long have you liked the person you currently like?
... how can i count how long i've started liking my friends?

4. Have you kissed anyone before?
nah LIP INFECTION is a scary thing

5. Did you cry today?
no . i do not cry on a regular basis ehem

6. What were you doing at 8a.m. this morning?
floating aimlessly in lalaland

7. What were you doing an hour ago?
HOMEWORK

8. What are you currently doing now?
sky diving. WHAT DOES IT LOOK LIKE I'M DOING?

9. Who last texted you a message?
...

10. Have you told anyone I love you today?
no aw what a pity.

11. Are you missing anyone now?
(i'll feel stupid for saying this but) I MISS 2B07 !

12. Any plans for tomorrow?
go to school go for cca go back home do homework sleep (no life)

13. What was the reason behind the last time you cried?
hm i have no idea

14. Anyone you wanna be with right now?
someone amazing who can help me do homework

15. Have you kissed anyone whose name started with an "s"?
foad

16. Name someone who made you smile today and why?
my amazingly hilarious thoughts :D (although they're not a person)

17. Name someone whose name starts with a "z"
zhengwei

18. Which friend of yours stays near you?
.. alot please im not going to list them

19. Do you prefer to call or text?
call la! smsing takes up so much energy and time

20. Do you prefer today or yesterday?
yesterday.
because yesterday was a saturday, today's a sunday and tomorrow's a monday! :(

21. Can you live a day without handphone or television?
maybe. if there's msn! :D

22. Are you mad at anything now?
damned homework

23. Do you think relationships are worth it?
they feed your life.

24. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
my grandma i think. but that was a long long long long time ago.

25. Who was your last and second last hug from?
... who the heck counts these redundant things

26. What does the last message in your handphone say?
(am i really going to type it out? -__-)
Hmm. it sucks for people like me who sms alot, too slow. and it's FAT! Left summary and maths ws.
[so you see, if you sms alot, DON'T USE IPHONE :D]

27. Define life.
LTD go figure :)

28. Do you hate anyone?
no (.. i think) it's sinful to hate.

29. Who was the last person you called?
..!! doesn't really matter anyway, people who call me are forced to by me

30. Who usually sends the most text messages in a month?
usually? it's different every month!

i just thought of something that made me laugh

me: omg wtf you n00b you're so annoying stop annoying me.
imk: what n00b. you ass h ..
me: :O
imk: :O
me: ... mr yap next to you

imk: you hole.

hohoho merry christmas!

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this reminds me.

i had this classmate in pri school who was called ongliwei but we called him onglibackside or something that sounded very wrong. and our teacher had warned us against using that obscene means of addressing him

i was calling him "ongli .." then i realised my teacher was standing next to me

and then he said "..wei"

LOL not funny? hahah i think it's hilarious

"ooh lala ~
the wind's so strong i could almost be blown away"

literally and figuratively :)

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i guess you were right that no one's really observing my actions and sizing me down

AND THUS ONE SHOULDN'T BE TOO SELFCONSCIOUS %D

things are so different when i dont assume myself in the center of attraction

stupid or stupid? :/

I have a confession to make (although i dont think anyone would see this :D ).
My name is Liwen and I suffer from Obsession. I need to stop before my life falls apart.

.

obsession is a scary thing . it can destroy lives :O

obsessions can stem from the simplest reason such as BOREDOM.
-__- sheesh i must be a really bored person

Hodgkinson suggests that one who loves obsessively has not fallen in love with a real person, but rather an illusion.

there're 4 phases of Obsessive Relational Progression

PHASE1 - ATTRACTION
where you start to fantasize of all the impossible, halfbaked ideals, attaching an illusory flawless personality

PHASE2 - ANXIETY
creation of the an imaginary intimacy relationship, regardless of reality and overwhelming feelings of jealousy, rage, resentment and depression, leading to violent reactions due to mistrust and possessive thoughts.

PHASE3 - OBSESSION
escalation of unhealthy addiction causing neurotic and complusive behaviours, such as stalking, constant pestering and manipulation.

PHASE4 - DESTRUCTION
rejection, realisation of false ideals and unfulfilled desires induce a sudden loss of self-esteem and extreme feelings of self-hatred, desolation and desire for revenge often leading to self-mutilation.

.

such an obsession is but a delusion, with dangerous unwanted consequences.
(e.g. stalking . rape . murder . suicide )

:O this is damn scary omg
YOU MAY BE OBSESSED AND YET DON'T EVEN KNOW IT!

please don't let something so minor destroy your life. don't be afraid to seek help. :)

i hate it when the ENTER button doesnt work on msn

makes me feel like a noob keep having to click the SEND button

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anyway!!!!!!! I AM SO PISSED LOR WTF HELLOOO??

HELLO (yes you know im referring to you!!!) YOU KNOW WHAT IS INTERNET?

INTERNET -
It is a "network of networks" that consists of millions of private and public, academic, business, and government networks of local to global scope that are linked by copper wires, fiber-optic cables, wireless connections, and other technologies.

(wikipedia.com)

EVERYONE CAN ACCESS THE INTERNET EVERYWHERE
whether you're eating at macs, rotting on the sbs bus, shitting in the toilet whatever
(if you have a laptop and internet access obviously)

please understand that blog =/= diary

DIARY IS PLACED IN YOUR DRAWER (or whatever secret place) BUT BLOG IS ON THE FCKING WORLD WIDE WEB

any stranger in the world can just happen to stumble over your blog and read anything that you may not want them to read
AND IF YOU DIDN'T WANT ANYONE TO READ THEM ... THEY SHOULD BE IN YOUR DIARY IN YOUR DRAWER IDIOT

are you saying people should be charged for using search engines?
are you implying that such convenient access to information should be abolished just to protect your privacy?

..

and :D search engines can be used to search for O lvl results too hahahhaha if you know what i mean

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holy cow EVERY BLOG I SEE IS LIKE GPA 4 GPA 4 GPA 4 !!! omgomgomgomg

person, please work hard

everyone says I WILL DO WELL THIS YEAR
everyone says that they will do their best put in their utmost effort
everyone says that they will score and get their choice combination

how many do you think will really succeed? do you want to be one of those who SAY ONLY LA

you think just by sitting around hoping and wishing and praying,
YOU WOULD GET WHAT YOU WANT??

person, please work hard!! please please please work hard

i think im having a fever.

my face is burning up . burning up with blue and white fire!

im going to bathe and emo HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

why do things have to end so quickly?

im sorry but you know i don't mean everything i said and despite it all i was really really very happy while it lasted

it was a great experience and maybe someday it'll come by again :D

i think it's true that people take for granted the best things that happen to them :(

1st january 2009 ?
gosh it's already another year and i've spent the countdown rotting in front of albert as usual

minutes before 2009 started, i've witnessed a few deaths

1. MY DEAREST HAMMY!

like about a week ago the daddy hamster died, and now it's mummy hamster's turn
[probably love sick]

really kind of sad but i put it in a box together with some delicious and yummy nuts dumped it down into rubbish chute to be on it's way to get incinerated

2. MAYFLY

as you might know mayflies live for only 2-3 days

and i've known this mayfly for it's whole life
[which was kind of lifeless as it has always been in my room -_-]

anyway it just seemed like it was drunk and now its dead body is beside albert

3. stupid MOSQUITO

you may wish to know i killed it with my bare palm

one minute it was enjoying my blood,
and the next it's dead

so 2009 may be like a new start for me i really don't know
i just know i really feel damn damn damn damn lousy

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the lousyshittyblearghkickme feeling is back again!

it's like holidays syndrome

it was so bad at the start of 2008 that all that ran through my head was .
"go back to school to new class"
"mug my ass off"
"be the nerdy freak in class"
"live without any friends"

of course that didn't happen
(being a nerd doesn't come easy to me)

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ok shit the mayfly wasn't dead -
it just got up and flew around in circles

GOSH! talk about strong will

... either that, or it was sleeping o.O

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in case anyone's interested (or if anyone ever reads this)

PLEASE CLICK ON THE LINK TO VIEW MY PHOTOSHOP MASTERPIECE >> masterpiece hehehe

everyone i've shown it to made comments like
"OH F*CK THAT'S UGLY SHIT"
"that looks like a plastic figurine"
"eew? my eyes are burning up!"
"super lifeless super scary"

what the hell ?

I CAN BET WITH YOU THAT IF YOU EVER SAW THE ORIGINAL SHIT ASS PHOTO YOU WOULDN'T BE COMMENTING ON HOW GRUESOME IT LOOKS AND THAT GUY THERE WOULD BE THE MOST GOODLOOKING GUY YOU'VE EVER SEEN

because honestly,
THE ORIGINAL PHOTO IS PLAIN GROSS

and i did it twice . the first time it looked like a transvesite

credits to jane for the photo
(HAHAHAH AS IF SHE WOULD EVER READ THIS ANYWAY LOL! AS IF ANYONE WOULD EVER READ THIS !)

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i feel like shitting but im afraid if i go out of the room now my dad will clobber me with a club