1st january 2009 ?
gosh it's already another year and i've spent the countdown rotting in front of albert as usual

minutes before 2009 started, i've witnessed a few deaths

1. MY DEAREST HAMMY!

like about a week ago the daddy hamster died, and now it's mummy hamster's turn
[probably love sick]

really kind of sad but i put it in a box together with some delicious and yummy nuts dumped it down into rubbish chute to be on it's way to get incinerated

2. MAYFLY

as you might know mayflies live for only 2-3 days

and i've known this mayfly for it's whole life
[which was kind of lifeless as it has always been in my room -_-]

anyway it just seemed like it was drunk and now its dead body is beside albert

3. stupid MOSQUITO

you may wish to know i killed it with my bare palm

one minute it was enjoying my blood,
and the next it's dead

so 2009 may be like a new start for me i really don't know
i just know i really feel damn damn damn damn lousy

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the lousyshittyblearghkickme feeling is back again!

it's like holidays syndrome

it was so bad at the start of 2008 that all that ran through my head was .
"go back to school to new class"
"mug my ass off"
"be the nerdy freak in class"
"live without any friends"

of course that didn't happen
(being a nerd doesn't come easy to me)

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ok shit the mayfly wasn't dead -
it just got up and flew around in circles

GOSH! talk about strong will

... either that, or it was sleeping o.O

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in case anyone's interested (or if anyone ever reads this)

PLEASE CLICK ON THE LINK TO VIEW MY PHOTOSHOP MASTERPIECE >> masterpiece hehehe

everyone i've shown it to made comments like
"OH F*CK THAT'S UGLY SHIT"
"that looks like a plastic figurine"
"eew? my eyes are burning up!"
"super lifeless super scary"

what the hell ?

I CAN BET WITH YOU THAT IF YOU EVER SAW THE ORIGINAL SHIT ASS PHOTO YOU WOULDN'T BE COMMENTING ON HOW GRUESOME IT LOOKS AND THAT GUY THERE WOULD BE THE MOST GOODLOOKING GUY YOU'VE EVER SEEN

because honestly,
THE ORIGINAL PHOTO IS PLAIN GROSS

and i did it twice . the first time it looked like a transvesite

credits to jane for the photo
(HAHAHAH AS IF SHE WOULD EVER READ THIS ANYWAY LOL! AS IF ANYONE WOULD EVER READ THIS !)

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i feel like shitting but im afraid if i go out of the room now my dad will clobber me with a club