"i'm your senior not your friend"
this year i'm already sec3 and next year i'll be sec4 too, can we be friends then?


:(

but i guess its just too late . haha you'll still be my senior afterall

&the year after that i probably wont ever see you again

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it is IDMI week and im supposed to be doing my ppt now but im procastinating
im sorry sorry sorry

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i'd like to say this in a quiet indoor whispery voice
its seldom that i feel so sad~

blue seems like a soft whispery colour doesnt it?

:)

no that really isnt a happy smile.

it's the kind of smile you make when you're really sad beyond words but can't be bothered to frown or make a sadbeyondwords face

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time pasts real fast

it's like when you're still being your own pathetic self, living oblivious to the people and things happening around you

and all of a sudden
'!!!'
I'M IN A TOTALLY NEW CLASS WITH NEW PEOPLE AND NEW FRIENDS TO MAKE

then a year later it happens again, with new things to shed tears for.

oh well but as you live this kind of miserably sad and nolife life,
there would always be someone(s) who turn(s) my frowns to laughter and make(s) all these worthwhile

like my friends :)
yeah and that was a real smile

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anw i should stop wasting time and get down to work

:D im honoured.

the first person ever who told me she likes my post IS CASSANDRA CHOW QILEI :D

ily ily ily ily ily yay yay yay you've just boosted my ego

to celebrate this ego boost, i shall do a different kind of post.

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As i turned the knob and pushed the door open, a cold gush of air greeted me. It wasn't exactly refreshing or stale, just the kind of air that tells me no one has been in my room since the time I left in the morning. I smiled to myself, relieved that my privacy had been respected, or at least that no one had bothered to invade my room knowing I wasn't around. But because no one had came in, the aircon had been left on. I shivered a little and thought maybe it would have been better if someone had enough sense to switch it off.

Ah, but all the better, the weather has been kind of hot anyway and today had been a tiring day. It was nice to feel the cold air on my damp skin. Feeling quite satisfied i closed and locked the door behind me. As usual, I unplugged the green earpiece from my ears and placed the it on my white box together with the attatched handphone. Grabbing 2 pillows, I flung them on the floor in front of my laptop and walked to turn the switch for the laptop on. I settled down in front of my laptop and plugging the earpiece in my ear, I could feel (and hear) Windows starting up. As the bright light pierced through the black laptop screen, I knew right away what I was going to post about today.

The screen flickered twice, my desktop wallpaper appeared on the second time and I did the usual things - opening wmp to play my songs, signing in to msn, and checking my mails. Then I opened a new IE screen and started to type in the blogger address. But at that moment, I wondered if anyone had tagged on my tagboard. Afterall, even though I had checked just this morning and most of our classmates were in school having IDMI dry run, maybe, there might be a chance someone had tagged. What if it was someone I know from quite some years ago? Or maybe a passerby who felt a great urge to tag? Whatever the case, it was still a good idea to check. No harm done anyway, it'll just take a minute.

So I paused my songs, started to type in my blog address, and a second later the song 4minutes was blasting in my ears just as I had expected. I scrolled down the green page. Sheesh, no new tag. Oh well, I might as well just reply dyllis's tag now, even though I just saw her this morning. It's more friendly to do so anyway. As I continued scrolling down, my eyes feasted on the different colours of fonts in my posts. They sure are colourful, and I really like them :)

Then it was time for me to give my colourful posts a new friend! I clicked on the words SIGN IN on the blue blogger bar, and after being directed to the dashboard, I started on my post. But it had seemed that I forgot what I had been wanting to post when I turned on the laptop. Was it about what happened today, or was it about what will happen later? Maybe it was just a random thought that frequents my mind regularly. I wasn't really sure what I was going to post about, and since I was feeling quite happy, I typed a smiley :D.

It was just then when the floor vibrated a little. Gosh, is the building coming to an end? The vibration got louder and more intense and soon it was at my feet. Oh goodness, it was just my phone. It was a good thing I decided to have my phone with me at all times during the IDMI week. Heather was calling. She asked for some research info and the ppt my group made. Sigh, another interruption. I had no choice but to take the phd from my bag and plug it into the laptop to retrieve my files. After copying them into our sharing folders, it was time to get back to the task at hand.

I saw the blank post page with a smiley face and wondered why I had typed that. Ah but since it's there, it shall just have to stay. I thought of the things that happened which made me feel happy. Something not too personal (but afterall nothing is personal for me), something not too stupid and general. Aha! Cas had commented on my post last night and I remember gigling to myself. That made a good start for a post. As I typed on about it, my thoughts I had earlier about the yet-to-be-written post came gushing back to me. Yes, that really is a good and creative idea!

Pushing up my specs and flexing my shoulders, I started on what I had wanted to post about, and as I type this, it will be reaching its completion.

TIME FOR DINNER!! (wooh it sure is early today)

tsk tsk tomato.

this shall be a long post (with all my random thoughts at the moment) to push down the omfgabsolutelycutepicture below. guys are jerks, REMEMBER?

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i actually have very little hair i wonder why they puff up so much like i have just received hair donation or something ==

SO i shall take to opportunity while my hair is wet to make it stick to my face

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when a pimple on your face no longer bothers you
either you allow yourself to suffer from POB or you think ...

OK SERIOUSLY I DONT KNOW WHAT CAN YOU THINK LA OMF == WHO WANTS TO SUFFER FROM POB OR THINK OF SOMETHING THAT WIL RESULT IN A WORSE TOMATOEY CASE OF POB?!!

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ah this isnt a night of many thoughts

i have this mood ring.

when i wear it at home it's always purple
when i wear it in school it's mostly orange/yellow

it isnt the room temperature because when jenn and ty wears it, it'll turn green or blue.

btw, purple is love, orange/yellow is nervous/anxious, green is calm, blue is happy (or fear haha which is like totally opposite)

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there was this time during bp lesson last year and we were supposed to write down our weaknesses

i wrote that i lose my temper easily and vent my anger on my friends.

SOMEONE IN MY CLASS (haha i dont know who) WROTE THAT HE/SHE GETS NERVOUS WHENEVER HE/SHE SPEAKS TO ANYONE

i mean. ??!! woah. be careful of heart attack dude.

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my hair is sticking to my face now but not when i go to school please dont be like that hair or ill hate you :( HAHA nah just kiddin i love you hair.

ok yucks that was so uhm ?

as i said. this isnt a night of many thoughts.

ill just have to leave it as that now :(

ah

I ALSO WANT A FLYING SQUIRREL AS A PET SO IT WOULD FLY AROUND MY HOUSE AND I CAN SEE IT FLYING

ok what am i saying

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i hate chinese (compos or anything of that sort especially)

oh no i love chinese

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school's been quite boring like i dont get to talk to most of my classmates. although there's jenn and ty and hanxi(omf) and usan :/ it's not the same

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ok this is a ridiculous post

i only posted it to say i wanted that flying squirrel as a pet which is not even true

goodnights

sleep early say byee to your pimples

the following is a conversation i had with wanying and dyllis (A BEING ME AND B BEING THEM :D)
their reactions &replies were about the same


A: when sx was sec3, i saw .

B: OMG SO HOW WAS IT ? (haha what how was it ==)

A: there was nothing at all!

B: you mean he went for PHR too?

A: maybe its just like that and i think he saw us looking so he stopped doing it

B: hm maybe he's embarassed. (uhh. what?)

A: but isnt it good there's nothing?

B: ah but you dont know guys like zhenghui seem so proud of it. (oh yes i know its quite traumatising sometimes)


NONO our conversations arent like that all the time hahaha but anyway all of the conversations make me laugh


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BTW WANYINGG!! omg normally i dont do this lol.





OMG AAAAH CUTE RIGHT CUTE RIGHT HE'S THIS JAPANESE SINGER WHO'S 15 TOO :O HAHA aren't you jealous ?

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i just realised something
i should have realised this earlier but

i would have to face all the consequences of my great ideas i had during the hols, once school reopens (which starts today!! :O)

it didnt really strike me until. until. ah until.

thank goodness the final plan is only due to be executed on the last day of school next year.
HAHAHA FINAL PLAN CURIOUS HUH?

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no matter how many times i say i hate primary school life
i cant deny that it was fun too.

even without having any friends sometimes :/ hm not exactly i had 2 close friends but still everything was so fickly

ah well but 2B and 3D are still great :D what nice classes :D:D

why let the ghosts of the past haunt me? :D

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sheesh i cant wait for school tomorrow.

i think

it would be fun to be an mc. ive never tried but i think it would be fun (not only for me but for the uhm audience :D) afterall, im such a fun and interesting peson



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if you had all the time in the world, would you still be sitting at your table studying for tests?


if i had all the time in the world, i wouldn't want to waste it away.


afterall, even all the time in the galaxy would come to an end once the sun blows up and that would also be the end for all of us.


but maybe dying is just like sleeping.


when you wake up from your sleep, you'd think "I've just slept."
when you wake up from your death, you'd think "I've just died."


that's a pleasant thought isn't it? :)


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TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY
if that's true, by the time we are 90, we would be leading a life better than in paradise


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im hungry again


YAY TOMORROW LCH DATE AGAIN AT MACS :D:D:D ( lch = lets copy homework )


that day i went with dyllis . it was so haha ish


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there must be something worth posting about, but it doesnt get to me :/ maybe eating helps.


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I LOVE KINDER CHOCOLATE.


if you think about the notes when playing a piece of music, you wont be able to play it.


(ok im not sure
maybe some people think of every single note before they play it)


but to me, playing on the electone requires no thinking.


ON THE CONTRARY I THINK SO MUCH WHILE PLAYING THE FLUTE OK AH MY PREVIOUS NOTHINKING STATEMENT WAS WRONG MAYBE BECAUSE THERE'S NO NEED TO TUNE THE ELECTONE HAHA ==


LOL what was that

oh dang. 15 minutes more. damnit i shall sleep it off

ive made a shocking (ok maybe not) discovery

brace yourself for it

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for the effect to make it sound serious i shall type the first letter in caps and end it with a full stop
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Everyone in this world is related to each other.
what?! you mean its not shocking?

imagine if that gay senior you know is related to you by blood

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as i type this post

im also discussing about my chemistry mini assignment

why oh why oh why DID I CHOOSE CHEMISTRY OMFG ==

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musicians multi-task all the time

listening for intonation within section, within woodwinds/brasses/basses, within the band
noting balance within stands, within woodwinds/brasses/basses
articulation &style
dynamics within the band

and many more?

sheesh

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i need to meditate to regain the ability to post nice posts

meanwhile dont ask me what is cleverpiggy or why is that my email add because i made it in p4 AND HAHA I HAVE TOTALLY NO IDEA WHAT WENT THROUGH MY HEAD

today's friday the 13th.

nothing special actually unlucky things happen to me all the time

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-hanxi(: A PATCH OF GRASS ö says:

IM INSANE MINUS THE IN

how many times must i tel u tt

I'M SOUND
pun intended

-hanxi(: A PATCH OF GRASS ö says:

i tink are more suited to be noise

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everyone's smiling my liweny enourmously wide smile in real life! :( nono it doesn't look like that > :D it looks like ... hmhmhm i cannot describe it.

i shall scan dyllis's drawing of me sometime next time

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"then how come she isnt the one whos obsessed?"

good question.
i dont know

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ive been calm too long
i need to do this

OMG WANYING I CANT WAIT FOR 14 JUNE TO PASS SO IT WOULD BE UPLOADED ON YOUTUBE OMGOMG I REALLY CANT WAIT GAHH IM BURSTING WITH EXCITEMENT ><>

woah that felt great (even it was just typed out)

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the reason im posting now is

1. to pass time hoping that the day would end sooner
2. to ensure that no unlucky thing happens to me (whats the worse that could happen in front of the computer?)
3. to fill my ears with the wonderful sound of typing on the keyboard

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i want to slice you apart alive, rip out your insides, puncture your guts, feel your heart pumping on my palm, stab a dagger through it, let your blood drip drop by drop, hear agony in your screams and wash my hands with your cold red fluids

i take pleasure in seeing you in pain

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i feel so tired

i like to smile like :)

i like to close my eyes to smile

i am not making sense

ive got to continue with my homework

1) What's the connection between you and the last person that called you?
the phone network la

2) Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
no but it switches off itself when its tired

3) What happened at 10.00am today?
i was dreaming of ijuanas (what a strange dream)

4) when did you last cry?
not sure

5) What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
i hate peanut butter

6) What do you want in your life right now?
great friends . great grades . great health . GREAT HAPPINESS HAHA

7) Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
i use my green file

8) What's your favorite thing to have on your bed?
MY SNOOPY xD

9) What bottom are you wearing now?
shorts that looks like a skirt

10) Whats the nicest text in your inbox say?
hello liwen thanks dont send me anymore weird msges ok

11) Where did you last have PDA?
?

12) Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
no why would i want to?

13) What was the last movie you caught?
KOIZORA i watched it on the plane back from brisbane

14) What are you proud of?
my name CHUALIWEN :)

15) What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
?? hello liwen thanks dont send me anymore weird msges ok

16) What was the last song you sang out loud?
i forgot :( whywhywhywhy singing unstresses me sing more sing more

17) Do you have any nicknames?
ok maybe some random name anyone thinks of at that random moment

18) What does your last received text message say? Who was it from?
Lol haha kay hope you had a fun bday hmms (: from alex

19) What time did you go to bed last night?
2.15 waiting for people to wish me happy birthday

20) Are you currently happy?
no actually im sad :( HAHAHA

21) Who gives you best advice?
?

22) Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
i want to YUM

23) Who did you talk on phone last night?
hanxi

24) Is anything bugging you right now?
HOMEWORK HOMEWORK HOMEWORK

25) What/Who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
hanxi

26) Do you wear toe socks?
HAHA no way dude. but nicole says it gives people a sense of FREEDOM hoho

27) Who was the last person you missed a call from?
my mum

28) Have you ever had your heartbroken?
ah who cares?

29) What annoys you most in a person?
people who annoys me

30) Do you have a crush on anyone?
if i had a humongous weight maybe i could

31) Have you ever done cocaine?
even if i had i wouldnt admit it here and wait for police to arrest me right == and no btw

32) What is the colour of your room?
yellow lightgreen darkgreen and pink

33) Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
no i would go to jail :(

34) Do you believed in the saying "talk in cheap"?
huh

35) Who was the last person to lay in your bed?
liwen

36) Who was the last person to hug you?
i forgot

37) Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
i never kissed anyone. not that i want to anyway i get lip infection real easily

38). Do you have a life?
yea i dont go round spamming others' hit counter (or do i?)

39) Have you ever think someone died, when they really didn't?
== sheesh

40) What is the reason behind your blog song?
i like it

41) Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
irene ! :O

42) Last time you smiled?
5 pm

43) Have you changed this year?
i think so

44) What are you listening to right now?
just the girl by click 5 LOL

45) Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
no not that i dont want to

46) Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
if i do it closed i wouldnt be here doing this quiz now

47) Is there a quote you live by?
noooooooo i hate quotes to live by hahaha

48) Do you want someone you can't have?
why would i want to own someone?

49) Have you ever played an instrument?
yea

50) What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
i just carried out that idea this morning :( sheesh

52) Are you happy with your love life right now?
what love life you mean the one with chualiwen? ah she's great haha

53) What song describe your love life?
?

54) Does the person know that you like him/her?
??? what person

55) Who always make you laugh?
my friends

56) Do you speak other language other than English?
CHINESSEEE

57) Are you blonde?
nowayy

58) What's your middle name?
it's a middle name

59) What are you doing tomorrow?
DOING HOMEWORK dang

60) What do you think you are like?
i think im like the CTE you know cutestthingever? haha

61) Who will you choose to die with?
if i had a choice i wouldnt want to die dummy

62) Where have you been today?
ikea courts and haha

63) What game do you play often?
oh the game where you sit around in front of the computer staring at the screen waiting for someone to talk to you

64) Who are you missing right now?
no one

65) If you've to choose between friends & love, who will you choose?
FRIENDS DUH

66) What are you doing right now?
THE BLOODY QUIZ?

67) Which primary school are you from?
white sands primary

68) Name 3 colours that you like.
green pink orange

69) What emotion you like to show?
the LIWENY emotion

70) What is life to you?
life is like lemons and thorns

71). If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
whine about it :( im sorry if you hate whiney people

72) Who did you last chat in msn today?
tj haha

73) Who do you admire the most?
CHUALIWEN FOR BEING THE CTE

74) Which month are you born in?
June.

75) How are you feeling right now?
i feel like i need to bathe

76) What is the time now?
10.40 pm

77) Where are you now?
Study room.

78) What colour did you use to dye hair?
what makes you think i dyed my hair

79) Why are you doing this test?
because im bored

80) What do you do when you're moody?
complain to everyone i can complain to

81) At which age you wish to get marry?
i told all my friends this haha

82) Who is more important to you? Boyfriend or friends?
friends == duh

83) Do you think you have enough confidence?
who cares about confidence if you're lousy all the confidence in the world cant cover up for you

84) Who is the person you trust the most?
.

86) If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
:)

87) What is your goal for this year?
sigh

88) Do you believe in eternal love?
who actually does?

89) What feeling do you love most?
to be really excited and really laughy

90) Do you really think its Global Warming now?
what else? theworldscomingtoanend ing?

91) What feeling you hate the most?
thinking of every stupid thing ive done and hating myself . tsktsk

92) Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
hah yea

93) Do you believe in God?
yea but im a free thinker

94) Who cares for you the most?
my family :)

95) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
being alive and eating yumyums

96) What'll you bring when you fight?
violence in all forms are never justified

97) What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
gahh the list is ENDLESSSS an example is what i did this morning :(

98) What would you feel that no one no longer cares for you?
that'll never happen which means i'll never know that feeling

99) What if your stead two-timed you?
who cares?

100) DO YOU HATE THIS SURVEY?
yea the person who created this is really sadistic either that or he/she is trying to stalk someone ah anyway i did it because im really bored who cares if i hate it anyway

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LIWEN BY THE WAY :D hope all your wishes come true smile always

back from brisbane :( so much hw to do

yea yea i know im inefficient goodnight im tired

imagine if someone has done something exactly similar to what you have done months before without knowing you have done it

imagine if you're doing what someone has done and acting like that person when he/she/it was at your age (or the equivalent because some objects/creatures can't live as long as others)

imagine if you found out someone else's life lies parallel to yours

woah. revolutionary revolution

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ah i see, you find my posts severely lacking substance.

but what substance can you expect when everyone else are busy on days im not and when im busy on days others are not?

here at the factory, two close friends prepare to say, "SO LONG". today, these small wonders move on to big things

"ooh sparkle sparkle."
"you look fast."
"if you got it, flaunt it."
"bumpy!"
"hey where you going?"
"EMAIL ME!"

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wheee im wearing the smallest blazer that was available in wardrobe yay yay yay yay yay

although its so small it looks distorted, IT'S STILL BETTER THAN AN OVERSIZED BLAZER WHICH WILL LOOK SO BLOODY STUPID SINCE I HAVE TO RAISE MY HANDS TO PLAY MY INSTRUMENT BECAUSE I PLAY THE FLUTE AND NO OTHER INSTRUMENT HAS TO BE PLAYED LIKE THAT UNLESS YOU COUNT THE HORN WHEN IT'S PLAYED BELLS UP BUT PEOPLE SELDOM PLAY IT THAT WAY SO THE FLUTE IS THE ONLY INSTRUMENT I GUESS

sidetracking, i realised i posted that i havent written my arrangement for eat on the 1st of may. i still havent written it yet lol.

about my blazer . ah yes . uhm what was i goin to say ?

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hm i wonder

OY liwen dont wonder so much the wonderment would devour you someday

hey who are you?

i'm chualiwen.

nonono. I'M chualiwen. who are you?

you're not the only one who can have the name chualiwen ok

:/ eh? how do you know my name?

OH YES 4MINUTES IS FINALLY UPLOADED ON IWEBMUSIC!

hey! you're not answering me

the number you've dialled is currently unavaible. please try again later.

oy! halo?

HEY FURBALL.

no not the furball phase again

go sleep la its really late.

nah it's extremely early, only 1hr+ into the new day

good night

good morning dudey

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tianjuen, prepared encore. says:

hi

NEWILAUHC . says:

say something funny so i can post it on my blog

tianjuen, prepared encore. says:

something FUNNY

ah brainless/braindead people would reply that way.

try testing yourself it's quite accurate

but do ensure that the time of test is appropraite (a time like now isn't very much so)

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sheesh. ive got to go lalaland soon. nighto earthlings

hey liwen you said it was morning

hey shutup