LIWEN YOU'RE SO UGLY FUCK YOURSELF PLEASE YOU'RE LIKE THE MEANEST MOST DISGUSTING IRRITATING ANNOYING TERRIBLE GIRL EVER NO WONDER HE HATES YOU OK NO WONDER ALL THESE ARE HAPPENING TO YOU NO WONDER YOUR FUCKING LIFE'S A MESS BECAUSE YOU'RE A TOTAL MESS YOURSELF

:(

not again. please stop me. save me.

I'm kinda pretty,
and pretty damned smart.
I like romantic things
like music and art.
And as you know
I have a gigantic heart.
So why? Don't I have a boyfriend?

Fuck, It sucks to be me.

I WISH I COULD HAVE WATCHED THE AVENUE Q MUSICAL :(

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I just realised.

When I was younger, most of the good movies were NC16.
Now that I'm 16, the good movies are M18.
In future when I'm 18, the good movies would be R21.
And when I'm finally 21! The good movies would be f*&%ing PG.

yay hallelujah

7758520

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You do know I'm losing it right? Thanks so much for consoling me, even though I never expected you to.
-goosebumps-

Just a sidenote,
I want a husband like Bert so I can irritate him all the time :D
And also because Bert's like a joke - he doesn't need to say anything to make me laugh.

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Btw,
I lied. I wasn't really sleeping. I was wide awake but I just decided not to reply. I'm afraid of what would happen in future. I don't want to go through the same thing over again. It was also in August when he said he liked talking to me. August. Last year.

Hi Bert.
Oh hi Ernie.



"Ernie. I'm bald."
"I wouldn't say that, Bert."
"You wouldn't say that. No. BUT IT'S TRUE!"
"I know it's true, I just wouldn't say that, Bert."



"Ernie! This is me knocking on the door and yelling because I want you to let me in."
"That's great Bert! Knocking on the door and yelling together. Ok I'm listening, Bert."



"Boy am I thirrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrsty."



"Nono I'm not playing, I'm reading, Ernie. And I'm not It."
"Ok."
...
"But Bert is It. kekekekeke"

-_______-

1. Depressed/irritable mood
2. Diminished interest
3. Significant lack of appetite
4. Insomnia
5. Fatigue/loss of energy
6. Feelings of worthlessness and guilt
7. Inability to concentrate
8. Frequent crying spells
9. Suicidal thoughts

fuck it you know what this means.

I'M WAITING
remember?

HAHA who am I kidding?

:/

YOU KNOW WHAT I REALLY LOVE? :D
(ok this is only one of the many things)

I REALLY LOVE TAKING QUIZZES TAKING ON SOMEONE ELSE'S PERSONA AND CHOOSE THE ANSWERS I THINK THEY'D CHOOSE TO SEE WHAT THEIR RESULTS WOULD BE

Fuck the eoys are so near.

Everything at home's a total mess. Literally and figuratively. Everynight I sit in my room by my laptop with my headphones trying to drown out the screams and crying and banging. It's driving me crazy. You told me you would always be there for me, then why are you doing this to me? The tears are making me feel very sleepy all the time. My grades are slipping like crazy and I don't know how long I can keep this up. I'm trying my best to help myself but I think you overestimate me - I'm not as strong as you think I am.

i'm never good enough huh.

maybe i should just learn to accept that i'm never good enough for anyone.

please don't get hurt.

(i backspaced alot. haha but some things are better left unsaid. or untyped for this matter)

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i hate going to 7-11 to buy wanton mee on fridays because the cashier is a very grumpy old woman who throws plastic bags at her customers.

but i still have to because lesson ended at 3 today.
without lunch break.

hm.

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i'm bleeding from my pores! :o

:O

I'LL MISS YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

:( DON'T LEAVE

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hahahahahahhahahahhaha

TO COUNTER ALL MY SADNESS :D

I'VE CAME UP WITH A PERFECT WAY FOR ME TO RELIEF STRESS AND GET BACK TO THE TASK AT HAND (WHICH IS MUGGING)

ALL YOU NEED TO DO IS:
1. THINK OF ALL THE THINGS BOTHERING YOU
2. WHILE THINKING, SCREAM: SO BE IT! AAAHHHH
3. THINK OF HOW MUCH BETTER OFF YOU'D BE NOT WORRYING ABOUT SUCH TRIVIALITIES

SO BE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BITCH MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHHAAHHA FUCK YOU FUCKING BITCH AAHHH SO BE IT

SO BE IT MAKES ME HIGH I LOVE THAT LINE

PMS

1. Pass My Shotgun
2. Psychotic Mood Shift
3. Perpetual Munching Spree
4. Puffy Mid-Section
5. Pimples May Surface
6. Provide Me with Sweets
7. People Make me Sick
8. Pardon My Sobbing
9. Pass My Sweatpants
10. Pissy Mood Syndrome
11. Plainly; Men Suck
12. Pack My Stuff
13. Potential Murder Suspect

dare you provoke me?

TMTH!

(tmth = too much to handle)

WLAUUUUUUU CUTE TTM PLEASE DON'T DENY IT



Is it of any wonder that I love hamsters?
(at least they're not black and don't shed hair unlike certain rabbits :D)

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it looks as if i'd peed my pants and :o we included jx's photo in our report

WE SHOULD HAVE SLEEPOVERS (or rather stayovers, considering there wasn't sleep involved) MORE OFTEN!

I'd spent 17 hours (3pm-7am) on sunday at chow's with boshi, supposedly churning out our geog coastal report.

Although we had been diligently on task most of the time, we still sought entertainment in certain facebook activities :D

DISTURBINGLY HILARIOUS

:) very satisfying 17 hours of dong our reports

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boohoo

WOOH LALALALALLALALA

:)

because
things happen in august.

to me. and probably you.

havent i already mentioned that?

CHANGWEI I FUCKING HATE YOU -__-

the next time you refuse to reply my sms i'm never going to pick up your calls or answer any of your questions about gpa again.

Discussing weight lost on msn is really amusing.

Specifically asking a question like:
Is it me, or did so-and-so really lose weight?

and their replies are usually:
He lost weight
(emphasis on absence of punctuation)

so it gives room for assumption and interpretation, which may be highly inaccurate

1. He lost weight. (reiteration, for blur cai niaos like ty)
2. He lost weight? *in disbelief*
3. He lost weight. (confirmatory statement)
4. He lost weight?! Are you f&^%ing nuts? He's still as fat as ever.

HAHAHA

I choose to believe that people usually mean option 4.

I LOVE DRINKING WATERMELON JUICE.
(-_- not because it is a natural viagra, or any of its effects ftm i just like drinking it cannot is it.)

:D

Irene you're right, obviously viagra doesn't work for females because it supposedly increases blood flow in males and uh. (HAHA awkward.)

btw, there is such thing as female viagra, it increases testosterone levels in blood, libido and sensitivity to stimulation.
oh but that's beside the point.

THE POINT IS! I'VE FOUND AN EFFECT OF WATERMELON JUICE ON FEMALES :D
hahaha it helps to cleanse vaginas!

...
idk how i'm supposed to comment on this ok haha moving on.

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oh but i have nothing else to say. :( cai niao

:) I want you to be happy.

go help her, she needs help

I'm dying to strike up a proper conversation, instead of replying with "lol ok" or "..." or "haha i see"

but I'm afraid. Afraid of what might happen. I don't want history to repeat itself. The exams are so near, I cannot afford to screw up.

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LETS ALL TAKE A DIVE
IN THE POOL OF
WATERMELONY BLISS

sidetracking,
BERYL'S MINT CHOCOLATES ARE THE BEST YUMYUMYUM

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[edit]
TRIBUTE TO LIWEN :D
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

LIWEN YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL NEVER EVER DOUBT THAT YAY



HAVE CONFIDENCE IN YOURSELF
(how can you not when even he can? and he's like ...)

没人能把谁的幸福没收
你发誓你会活的有笑容
你自信时候真的美多了

[/edit]

What else can I do if I've already tried my best?

LOOK FORWARD TO THE AMAZING WONDERS OF LIFE I'VE YET TO DISCOVER :o

...
or sleep it over, it'll probably work.

One should never give up.
I'm not giving up, I'm just choosing to be happy. :D

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thanks for yesterday btw.

NO THANKS FOR EVERYDAY! :D




(btw ty, haha i lied to you about the cucumber thing today. there isn't such a thing, not that i know of anyway. you're such a 菜鸟. 什么鸟！？)

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f%^*ing hell of 3 sleepless nights.



you're right. I AM AMAZING HUH. TOTALLY :D

wow

ruide.tk--loves DHS and RV volunteers! says:
am i going to spend my rest of my life like them?!
doing practically NOTHNG
?
or am i going to go out of my confort zone and make things happen
and not wait for things to happen!!!

Amazing or not you tell me? HUH?! Amazing! I'm inspired.

(thanks chow. :D)

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...
but speaking of which, ham used to tell me not to quote him or paste whatever he says in our conversation to a place where other people can read it.

-__- Hello? If SHE does it i'm sure you'd be honoured.

Just when i was chanting her name, she signed in. God damnit.

I find it hilarious. How in the age of technology, heated arguments have evolved from looking a person angrily in the eye to mere ANGRY WORDS TYPED IN BLOCK LETTERS ON MSN.

:) haha funny isn't it?

i'm having terrible TERRIBLE mood swings. please save me.

i remember there was once you played a prank on me by sending me like 30+ smses consecutively causing my phone to lag like crazy and i got really really mad at you so i didn't speak to you for the whole of the day.

:( i wouldn't mind you spamming my phone now.

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it's 1.25 am.

i've just played 彩虹 and 童话 on the electone.

：/ this is so weird. i usually only play when i need to practice.

good emo session though. it felt great.

蔡旻佑又要出新专辑了！:D

POST-ITS ROCK MY LIFE.




You may have seen those 2 characters before in my previous entries

They're called voodoo girl and voodoo boy
(haha ok how creative -__-)

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INSPIRATION PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME.

I know what I'm going to write for my BW story. It's going to be amazing - just like my life ahead. I'm on my way to a more fun-filled and exciting life. :D

pool of happiness i think i love you.

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

no seriously.

I'm swimming in a pool of happiness.

I think he has just proven to me that the worse one's predicament is, the more positive one would be.

It's probably because after being thrown with all the setbacks and failures, one would learn that being depressed and pessimistic is never really the best solution.

Maybe I'll save his photo in my phone and the next time I feel lousy, I'd look at the photo and think of what he'd said and the day would be a better one.

...
not because he's goodlooking-_- (he isn't) but rather, the fact that someone so average like him can be so extraordinary drives me to take a step back and evaluate my outlook to life.

amazing. totally.

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You should be on your own. I should stop trying to help you and get refused by you yet again. I'd always thought I needed to save you, to protect you from the world trying to take advantage of your naivety. But now I've realised that you're probably better off yourself. Then you would learn, and quit thinking that I'm always putting you down, because I was just trying to help.

This feels like an oven.

I'm a muffin. Baking in an oven.

It's so hot in here, so hot that I can't tell the difference between my sweat and tears. They're just wet and salty and wet and warm and running down my cheeks.

One day someone texted me,
What does love really mean to me.
I said, How should I know?
I have never been in love before.

But there is something that I know -
It truly tortures when it comes to love.
And there are some things that I have seen -
Love doesn't always shine and gleam.

If you wanna know what I think,
I think. I'll tell you that I still believe,
Believe that one day it'll be my turn
To fall into the mess I have seen before.

♥ 不嚕嚕 says:
選男朋友時記得看他的嘴唇。

NEWILAUHC ; says:
？为什么？

♥ 不嚕嚕 says:
與嘴唇厚的男生親吻，包你爽到爆 XD

[wtf? -_- haha! damn funny hor]

.

♥ 不嚕嚕 says:
我好想去新加坡诶
我告訴你 你要來接機毆!!

xD

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:D :D :D :D :D

when you smile, the air hangs thick of vanilla flavoured icecream.

xD MY FAVOURITE yumyum

:)

In our parallel lives, you're probably wishing you were me. And I have everything you could hope for.

what a thought. and a happy thought indeed.

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k fine so whatever, 说真的我其实不care.

w00ts i love my electone.