eh amazing ttm :D *bean smile*

(btw, i remember someone told me before that all the guys i had been obsessed over all look alike, and thinking of it HAHA that's true)

have you ever squeezed a handful of soapy substance (namely facial wash, shampoo or body soap) on your palm while bathing and stoned for a moment wondering where should that soapy substance be rubbed on?

and ever so unfortunately, there has to be a time when you massaged body soap onto your hair, making the hair dry and tangled up :(

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thanks emergency rescue team, I LOVE ALL OF YOU!

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yet we cannot prevent the spread of the ohsodeadly (haha) swine flu.

5 down, 24 to go. who's the next on the line?

ME ME ME !

AHHHHHHHHHH


OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOGMOGMOMGOMGOMGOGM

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE AND TALENTED AND AMAZING AND HE HAS A BEAN SMILE TOO OMGGGGG

WANNUNG IM IN LOVE WITH HIM :O :DDDDDDDDDDD

nah la just obsessed only hhaha i want to melt just looking at him.

ok that's it.

my future boyfriend must play the violin :D

irene!!!!!!!! please dont die :(

It’s been a long time since I sat in front of my laptop staring at a Microsoft word document, emptying my thoughts and feelings upon the blank screen as my fingers crunch the keyboard keys.

So long that I’ve lost my touch.

But one never loses touch to his/her feelings. Or so I’d thought. Maybe one day if I stopped brooding over supposedly depressing events, sadness would cease to affect me.

All the things I used to love about the night are now haunting me. It’s like a nocturnal monster hungry for feelings of grief, trying desperately to scrape the sides of an empty shell, feeding mercilessly on every ounce of dark, dismal emotions. Is it me, or does the night seem so much lonelier?

Where have all the laughter and joy disappeared to? Probably the work of the dark night skies, sucking up my happy thoughts in hopes of making midnight a tint brighter. Yeah, that’s probably it.

You know the kind of eerie silence so quiet that you hear a shrill note screaming in your ears. Screaming for release.
That’s only the way I see it.
Others may very well see and appreciate the unspeakable beauty of it. Of a note that seems to warp in tone and pitch, forming a melody that swims in their head.

Oh sure, I feel it too. Except that all I hear is a chaos of psychedelic noises pulsing in a counter-heartbeat. Ironic, I know – the talk about all these sounds out of nothingness. But this is just a worded description of how I perceive things to be. That’s perhaps where the phrase “more than words can say” comes from.

Somehow I know a part of me is enjoying this painful silence.

It has come to such a point that I start to replace the dance that play in the night with heavily processed music blasting from my headphones. Something tells me that if I pour soulless sounds into my head, my troubles would in turn be forced out. Simple laws of physics there – when you forcefully fill a container until it exceeds its carrying capacity, something has to give way. Same logic?

There’s something I forgot though, the reason why misery is gnawing up at my insides. It is expectations. Yet how many times do I have to be let down to know that certain expectations are merely an illusionary goal to keep fools waiting for something that would probably never happen in their lifetime?

Some slog out all their lives in hopes of living a life of luxury. They frown upon those who desire nothing more than a loaf of bread to fill their stomach and a shelter over their heads. ‘Fools’ they are called. But who are the real fools here? ‘We are meant to live life to the fullest.’ People blinded by the yearning for life in the lap of luxury equate this line to money, status and fame. These are what they crave for, what would plaster a smile on their faces. What they do not know is that all these are just man-made devices of deceiving themselves because they are too shallow to contain the real volume of happiness life has to offer.

And thus. I should be happy, shouldn’t I?

Indeed. The moon pirouettes in zest and glee. ‘Tonight is your night,’ he chuckles. Stars look shimmering-ly good in their smart poised tuxedos and elegant flowing gowns. They swirl around the midnight dance floor, spicing up their night with sips of martini. An extraordinary star glistens amidst them all, her coy smile radiating a sphere of alluring elegance and exuding a hint of anticipation.

‘May I have my last dance?’

well well well, what do we have here?
(oh holy i'm just reminded gotta wish siqi happy birthday)

so you say, it's not ok to be gay, well i think you're just evil
fuck you, fuck you very very much

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:)

HAHAHA I WANT TO CRY BUT THIS TIME I DONT HAVE YOU TO CRY TO.

i feel really empty.

"She's just a prettier, quieter and nicer version of you."

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eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

i'm losing my touch

i'm always less important than someone else.

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then again. there's always someone less important than me.

"Her eyes are two times bigger than yours." zhouhong

(i told you zhouhong was infatuated with her. so don't emo already LOL even he knows you emoed because of him.)

hahaha then ty's eyes must be 1/4 of hers. freaky. ttm.

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things happen in august.

dig OUR archives.

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remember that day on 6th november and you smsed me saying you were so sick you were going to die so i called you to make sure you were ok i wish things were still like that.

that was one awkward conversation though

"The best and worst trick of flirting is to pretend you're in much pain when you're not." flirting guru

the kind of flirting guru who's forever telling me GO GO GO FLIRT WITH HIM THEN HE'D LOVE YOU -_- crazy hahhahahaha that won't work

peace out \/

i watched harry potter on friday.

(HAHA YES I POSTED JUST TO SAY I WATCHED HARRY POTTER WOOTS)

my posts nowadays seriously lack substance.
(not like they did in the past)

but life's been really hectic

& you just need something [or the fixation with someone for this matter] to soothe your nerves and add gaiety to life! :D

but as i've mentioned before, obsessive love isn't real love but a manifestation of my ideals and fantasies projected on another person

... in other words, i'm sorry.

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oh just another side note

i don't really like it when people (erm) come really really near to me, because close physical contact makes my skin crawl and my lungs gasp for more air

it's nothing personal really, not that i don't like you

I JUST DON'T LIKE YOU STICKING YOUR FACE AND BODY NEXT TO MINE ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M TRAPPED IN A CORNER WHICH RESTRICTS MY MOVEMENTS. I'M KIND OF CLAUSTROPHOBIC AND CONFINED SPACES MAKE ME FEEL LIKE WATER IS BUBBLING UP INSIDE MY LUNGS.

ok yes. just so you know. please don't take it personally :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

because you're what i wished for.

:)

:D

i'm glad you realised that, now return him to me!

ok i'm just kidding
(-_- no wannung i'm just kidding so stop it)

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...
if that really happened, i'd have no idea how to respond.

it's just like a year ago when i insisted sx was the cutest thing ever and he told me sx wasn't worth it. maybe he meant that he himself wasn't worth it hmm.

well well, so what has happened now?
the cycle repeats, but who's going to be the next on the line?

HAHA NEXT ON THE LINE LIKE CHOPPING BOARD, i'm not that scary alright.

"go suck a fuck."
- donnie darko (my favourite movie of all times, i'm totally serious)

1. Is it true people hate you?
yes very true

2. Is it true that you wet your bed before?
yes when i was really young

3. Is it true you have farted during class?
:o hahaha yeah but usually everyone knows because i'll tell them beforehand

4. Is it true you have a crush and they dont know?
yeah but he knows

5. Is it true life has no meaning?
nah

6. Is it true you have uncontrollable sexual urges?
oh duh -_- of course not but irene thinks otherwise

7. Is it true you enjoy the company of electronics instead of friends?
:o shockingly true

8. Is it true you have embarrassed yourself horribly in front of a big group of people?
:/ i'm liwen, what do you think?

9. Is it true your a horrible kisser?
idk, wanna be the first to know? :D

10. just tell a truth about you that most people dont know
i'm a sucker for guys who wear braces :o (but edman doesn't!)

Today, my friend hung up on me before I could finish speaking. I pretended to wait for her reply and continued talking on the phone so no one would know. MLIA.
(http://mylifeisaverage.com/story.php?id=116959)

my MLIA got published -_-

guess my life really is average :(

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i'm already missing siqi HAHA

no appetite :( i'm not going to school tomorrow. i shall stay at home and emo.

ok maybe not.

stop being a bitch. why are you still complaining when you have everything i could wish for? you just don't know how to cherish it. so stop wallowing in self-pity.

at least i have wonderful friends.

omg -_-

recently i've been having MSN related dreams.

and that is a very peculiar feeling indeed.

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aw that's just too bad for you.
FYL totally.




EDMAN'S ONLINE!

MLIG :)

HAHAHA hilarious

i just love unglam photos!

:)

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oh wannung, i'm up this late because of you.

and also, i know you're a fan of a certain someone's blog (which i particularly dislike) because you're always pasting the link on our conversations and tricking me into clicking it (however unsuccessful haha noob)

and yes, i know i always say i hate people who emo emo emo and act all OH FML and shit. BUT! i was not the one who harmed the poor innocent heart of your idol. -_- it was probably the who anyway, trying to save ehem TADA!

so stop trying to spite me -_- :( i'm also really hurt. :(

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ON ANOTHER NOTE! OMGGGG SHIA LABEOUF WAS BORN ON THE 11 JUNE WHICH IS THE SAME AS ME :O OMG HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT

-_- haha just kidding.

I LOVE LISTENING TO EMO SONGS AT NIGHT :D

(i'm not emo)

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I think my discovery of omegle somewhat foreshadows siqi's coming lololol. Although I'm not going to tell her that, it sounds highly weird. -_-

note: I AM NOT EMO!

... but somehow I feel like I have not really returned to school for the new term.

Nope, it's not the holiday mood, I just feel really distant and un-liwenish. :(

It's probably my addiction getting to me. Plus! With siqi sitting next to me in class, it's as though she's feeding my daydreaming tendencies.

:( how how how? I desperately need to tune back to life in school and face reality.

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oh since the june holidays have ended I shall do like a reflection on how it had been.

I'm glad the holidays have been geeat for you, because you probably achieved your goal of getting closer to her. (o_O?!)

and my holidays?
I got more than what I had bargained for. :)

It had been a really amusing and yet somewhat strangely enriching. I was given a chance to question and elucidate any doubts I originally had towards my views and stand on world happenings and controversial (and uhm taboo) topics.

LIKE HOW THE F&%$ WOULD YOU ANSWER SOMEONE WHO ASKS:
WHAT DO YOU THINK WOULD HAPPEN AFTER THE SWINE FLU EPIDEMIC, AND WHAT IF IT DOESN'T SUBSIDE?
WHY DON'T YOU APPROVE OF PREMARITAL SEX?
DON'T YOU THINK THAT SPEAKING BROKEN ENGLISH IS REALLY EMBARRASSING? WHO SETS THE STANDARD OF PROPER ENGLISH ANYWAY?
2012?
THIS MONTH IS GAY PRIDE MONTH - ARE YOU PRO-FAMILY?

and I learnt that although we may all seem different, we're actually not THAT different. I'm speak this with absolute seriousness, not meaning be overly sappy and cliche or anything.

thanks hanxi! :D haha and everyone who made my holidays really enjoyable.

oh yala and i met someone really cool and cute HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA yeah yeah how can i forget of my boy crazy nature?