i don't know what is it that makes people dislike me.

oh wait i know. it's just me being me. i'm a dislikable person. i'm terrible disgusting fake aa and basically i just suck and everyone has the right to hate me.

:(

i wanna cry really really badly. i just wanna sit in MY corner and cry and cry and cry and hopefully after all my tears have been spent all my troubles would go away and i would be somewhere far away from this cruel hurtful world.

i'm not getting any better am i? sometimes, i don't feel the need to either.

It's Jenn's birthday today! :D

Hope she doesn't read this before we celebrate her birthday for her.

So exciting ehhh? :D

just finished my icecream :D i love the way it tasted so sweet and cold and how it melted in my mouth (like normal icecream should haha)

small things like these make me happy
like your smile

i was just wandering around facebook and saw many photos of you being a drama mama

YOU'RE FRIGGIN AWESOME \m/ :D

on another note, i've got chem and maths test next week. well technically, it's THIS week. but i like to delude myself into thinking i've still got a long way to go before doom's day.

it's like freaking 4am now D: and i'm supposed to be in bed but obviously i'm not.
maybe i shld sleep right now.
HAHA yeah i should.

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gosh that was lame, but hey, it's my blog afterall.

:D tata my fellow yugopotamians.

<3

oh and btw, to anyone who's reading this, i really REALLY do appreciate you spending time to read my blog LOL, even if you might be reading this out of boredom. sorry my blog's so boring -_-

(haha i might just have typed that message to no one at all but oh well)

and! to those whose last memory of me with you was of me smiling/laughing, i feel really thankful to have you around me because you really do make me a much happier and livelier person. :)

LETS CREATE MORE HAPPY MEMORIES TOGETHER :D

hahahaha oh sheesh im nuts.

sigh sigh sigh it's my toe's bad day again.
or rather bad dayS. D:

it has just rained and im feeling kinda reflective or whatever you call that.

and i just realised that whatever you know, who cares if he thinks im aa right? :) i should just live in the moment. i love life. :) thanks wunderful friendsss :D

although i really do like him sigh. but whatever right? :D friends are much better to be with.

shld i have given him up for calvinn?

D:

HAHAHAHAHAHAH IS IT JUST THAT IM TO HUA CHI OR THAT ALOT OF GUYS APPEAL TO ME LOLOLOL

yeah, unfortunately it's only a one-way thing D: sigh

HAHAHAHA WHATEVER life rocks nonetheless \m/
(whether calvinn likes me or not)

Life rocks even though calvinn things im kinda ding dong
Life rocks even though there're people who dislike me
Life rocks even though .... im mentally unstable or whatever you call this

LIFE ROCKS BECAUSE I'VE GOT HANXI AND JENNIFER AND TEO EE AND HILLARY AND YOKE AND MY WUNDERFUL CLAZZzZzZz
Life rocks because high-ness only comes to those who are truly happy AND IM HIGH :D AND HAPPY
Life rocks because LIFE JUST DOES :D

I LOVE LIFEEEE \m/

i wanna go back to school naoooo D:

I feel so conflicted.

I'm sure many people have realised this, but it has only come to me a few moments ago. It kinda scares me that as we go about our everyday lives, we're constantly making choices that would pave the path for our future. Every second of the day, we take the steps on the board game of life with trepidation and uncertainty.

There're so many things which I could've done differently, each decision leading to a different outcome. What is it that I want to achieve ultimately? Have I taken the right preliminary actions?

Sacrifices that we all make may not seem much to us at that very moment. It it only as we look back and spare a few moments to ponder on our actions that we realise that we've erred in judgment.

Who wouldn't like to live a life void of regrets? To live a life in a bed of roses? But then again even roses have their thorns - it is impossible for life to be constantly smooth sailing. I guess it's really up to us and how we choose to react to the things that happen. Up to us to forgive ourselves for the mistakes we made, mature and move on.

I'm not sure if the decision I had just made would harm/benefit me. But either way I'd have to face the music with an open heart (or open ears LOL) be it soothing lullaby or the horrible din of my singing.