Call me lag but I didn't know blogger had a new layout. It's kinda hard to get used to, just as all changes are.

I wonder what it is that makes us human beings so resistant to change. I might risk sounding like an ignorant dumb blonde but I'm pretty sure that homosapiens are one of the few species that have not developed any structural adaptive characteristics since hundreds of years ago. Instead of sucking it up and adapting to changes that throw us off from our banausic routines, we bemoan the void that has now formed in our life, trying desperately to seek out that comfortable familiarity.

Oh but that's right. How hypocritical of me to not mention how much I'd looked forward to the end of my 20 day wait.

I am but human afterall, and definitely not a great shooter (if you got my reference to a corny pick-up line). I'd spent my days engaging in less than fruitful activities and in admitting so is my cue for your judgement. It's not like I couldn't help it but when the opportunity arose for me to introduce change in my routine I'd declined the offer just for the excuse the continue wallowing in self-pity.

Sleep has now manifested into my defense mechanism against meaningless pinning and overly active tear glands. That could be my behavioural adaptation I guess.

Regarding the topic of adaptation, I distinctly remember reading somewhere that the female genitalia have shifted to aid in more convenient and comfortable coital positions (namely missionary). Kinda proves human beings are sex-crazed creatures. Or maybe that's just me since my memory usually fails me and this was one fact that stuck. I could be very wrong though.

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I apologise for sounding distant and cynical and though I am in no position to judge it is in human nature to do so. It's almost as though the level of sadness emitted from people around me have increased a tiny bit and my heightened sensitivity to such vibes have amplified these emotions.

Back to the my usual self-absorbed posts.

Watched The Cabin in The Woods for the 3rd time today. Ridiculous I know, but I am that obsessed with the movie. Could be the whole satirical take it has on one of my favourite movie genres - horror that makes me like it so much, or just the fact that the plot was so different from a normal movie's and had kept me guessing from the beginning. Then again it could just be my lack of exposure to movies in general.

Probably shouldn't have felt offended when the people I'd watched it with this time didn't share the same sentiments but I did, strangely enough. How unlike me to not respect others' opinions, especially on such a trivial matter. I don't remember feeling this annoyed even when some guy insisted that sex was the only way to ascertain someone's love and that couples who start of as friends would never have a fulfilling (or in his words, 'real') relationship and congratulated himself on how much of a love guru he was.

I digress. I don't feel superior to them intellectually just because I understood the concept of the movie and didn't exclaim how stupid it was as the credits rolled. Maybe. But I felt disappointment and I daresay a little crushed. Imagine a little kid excited to share her favourite toy which she'd gotten as a gift with her playmates, brimming with joy and anticipation that they too would love and be entertained by it and the feeling that overwhelms her when they deem it unworthy of their attention. That's how I felt.

Damn. I digress again.

What is it I had wanted to type? I was in a daze a minute ago, with my chin propped up on my left hand. What occupied my mind in that instant evades me now but it must have been an interesting thought.

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Andy and I often joke about how nothing much really goes through my head. Well at least he does. Maybe. He could be serious just as I am though. I mean it when I say that it requires much effort for me to think about anything. Sometimes I sit and squint in a bid to oil the rusty brain gears. That doesn't usually work. Hehehe. That was a smile by the way. A translated smile. Oh but that's this -> :) Goddamnit I'm becoming stupid. Doesn't bother me though.

Speaking of thinking, I'd done a little these few days which possibly amounts to those moments people have when they are deep in thought, except mine had been drawn out over a week. I decided that I was going on embark on something but usually since I don't carry through my plans well I doubt this would work out. We'll see :)