I feel so so so sorry.

I wanna do something so badly, but somehow I feel like you don't need me in your lives anymore.

:(

Not sure what I'm doing with my life. Feel like I'm bulldozing around aimlessly and pointlessly. Maybe one day after I get so sick and tired of all these, I'd decide to end it so I won't feel so much pain anymore.

Hate it so much when I know you're pissed with me because you expect me to be the perfect kind of person I'm far from.